Wednesday, April 1, 2009

What Gives?

I totally just self-sabotaged.  What an idiot.  

I've been trying to study for the GRE all day today with virtually no luck.  I'm behind in my class and I wanted to get caught up before my class tonight.  Instead of pushing through concepts I didn't understand, I got frustrated and did something that I shouldn't have.  Definite negative coping skill.  Now I really can't focus on the GRE because I'm even more upset.  

Stupid self-sabotage.  

I give up.  I'm not going to study anymore today.  So what if I'm behind.  

I don't hate the GRE anymore, I hate myself.  

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hate the GRE, not yourself!

Funny, the word verification is "noatedsm" -- No Ate DSM. Hmm, anorexia? heh.

brie said...

Oh hon, we all mess up. But that doesn't mean we should give up, it means we should forgive ourself and keep moving on. I'm confident you can study - even if it's 5 minutes at a time. I know you can do it!!!

kristin said...

I agree with jana--hate the GRE, not yourself!

Don't give up, Kara. Study in increments. Do as much as you can and then take a break. Little by little you will catch up and keep up.

Hang in there!

your friend, kristin

PTC said...

:(

I wish you weren't so down on yourself.

Just Eat It! said...

There's always tomorrow! Don't beat yourself up over a mistake; it happens.

Telstaar said...

One step (word/sentence/paragraph/page) at a time hun. You can do it. I always have a breakdown every semester over my work, but somehow it happens. You can only do your best with what you have currently, so keep trying, we're all here cheering you on!!!

*hugs*

Jackie said...

I felt like this while studying for the LSAT and the Bar. I felt overwhelmed, behind on everything - but in the end, when push came to shove, I did it. The same goes for you honey - you do the best you can and try not to let the feelings get too overwhelming and when the GRE is here, you will do your best. That is all you can ask of yourself honey. I found that SLEEP was the best thing I could do - if it meant I wasn't studying as much as everyone else, it didn't matter. Take care of your body and the rest will follow.

I am rooting for you! xoxo

Sarah Johnson said...

Yes, "Team Kara" is rooting for ya!

Remember to be kind to yourself.. and that means letting yourself mess up. But trying again. and again. and again (and adjusting your expectations along the way so you don't feel so overwhelmed.

you can do it :)