Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Wounded Heart


I'm having a really hard time tonight.  I hate fat.  I hate my fat, blubbering body.  I hate how much I hurt.  The pain is like a knife twisting in my heart.  The eating disorder is taking over my life and making me miserable -- but I can't seem to let go....    

11 comments:

Asherbie said...

A wounded heart that is beating is a real heart. You are real and alive and powerful.

Lisa said...

Dang. I can't top that first comment.

It will get better. You will not always hurt so much.

Just Eat It! said...

Hang in there. <3

now.is.now said...

Do something to make yourself feel cared for and peaceful today. Pick anything and do it. Seriously. Hope today is easier than yesterday.

PTC said...

What's going on Kara?

Telstaar said...

*hugs gently*

Keep hanging in there hunni. I'm kinda not surprised that the eating disorder is being chaotic right now. You've got SOOO much stuff happening, good stuff, but its still new and thus probably a bit scary in general. Lots of unknowns. But you'er gonna make it. I think the eating disorder might in part be a way of coping with all these changes, all these future possibilities right now.

I guess I wonder if perhaps the eating disorder is trying to protect you! I just don't know that its hurting you also.

Thinking of you and praying,

Love Telly xo

lisalisa said...

I'm sad that you have so much pain and hurt inside you right now. I wish there is something i could do! You are loved by so many people! Keep breathing in and out, maybe treat yourself to one of those chocolate bananna thingys.
((hugs))

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry you're hurting, Kara. I know it's so hard. I'm sending some love and peace to you.

xoxo

kristin said...

Hang in there, Kara. You're strong and you'll get through this.

love, kristin

K said...

Telstaar -I think you are so right on.

Equality said...

Turn your life to God and everything will be ok...ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE